when i discovered the redpill, i was elated; it made sense, i felt like I found the way

when i found mgtow, I felt like I actually digested the red pill, which is actually more like a truck of redpills and blackpill skittles with m&m's in it, each one bitter and as sweet as the highest quality dark chocolate - this sub has saved me multiple times with its unique chemistry of raw discussion, unfiltered bullshit, dank memes, and insight from other men who see past the clown makeup and facades of these creatures that esther vilar aptly describes

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i don't even know where to start tbh

i've been a lurker here for a long time, but never once felt the need to comment post.

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what's changed?

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every day, the red pill rage in my heart burns. it doesn't hurt anymore - i got that shit out of my system with bowls of ice cream. i'm pursuing my dreams full force, but i wake up at 2am or sometimes can't sleep, and that's when the fear of failure gets to me, but even more than that: the red pill embers still burn, a year later.

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these women that I let into my life set me back 4-5 years, if not a decade - never again. I've got better things to do with my time

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it sucks to admit, but some days i legit don't have it together

you can love women or you can understand them

once you are unplugged from the matrix there is no going back

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i don't know where i was going with this but I wanted to say thank you to all of you - whether it's a novel 10 paragraph post detailing AWALT or a witty comment about someone's left testicle, you guys are like the torch bearers that illuminate the path for many a man should they go looking for the road less traveled - and i'm extremely thankful that you guys are here