It's just too fucking hard. Nobody gives a shit whatsoever. I'm tired of being left behind because I am not enough based on the standards of society and those who have abandoned me out of selfish desires to protect their self interest. Tired of all the hate. Tired of the flashbacks. I'm just so fucking tired of humans. I'm tired of myself. I'm tired of my happy memories. I hate them so fucking much. Tired of the lies spread about me. Tired of watching people and as I get to know them how disgusting they are. Tired of the night tremors. Tired of the PTSD. Tired of no one giving a fuck about me ever. Even my own father abandoned me, what the fuck am I worth? I give up.