Plain and simple. I would never commit a violent act or even say something negative irl because im just not that type of guy (and I dont want to go to jail). Everything about them is so offputting: the way they mock and laugh at men, their narcissism, their condescension, their snideness. They are disturbingly filthy creatures and I could write a whole novel about my hatred of women. But when does this hatred finally end? When can I just stop caring about them altogether. Im so tired of caring. I went mgtow junior year in high school and its been 4 years since then. Things have their ups and downs but at the end of the day I just dont want to see women in my life. I dont want to see or hear from one ever again. Also there is the fact that im biologically attracted to them which only makes matters worse because i am aware of how vile and vapid they are.

I just dont know how to change my mindset. Ive heard a lot of men say that female nature and hypergamy arent inherently bad but they are disgusting to watch in person. Im just the type of guy that values honor, loyalty and trust above all else and women's very existence is the antithesis of my core values. They will lie, cheat (in more ways than one), and steal to get what they want. Can anyone help? I might seem like a shitty guy but I honestly cant help feeling this way after seeing their true nature.

*I apologize for the grammar/organization issues, I just needed to rant.