and run all my conversations in my mind thinking if i said something wrong. I feel bad if people don't talk to me properly and then waste most of my time thinking if they would become more successful than me and i would have an unfulfilling life cause of their success. An example of this is that i meet people and when i get back home, i send them friend requests on fb. If the guy doesnt accept it i feel too bad and think that he must have hated me and he hates my looks etc. Worst is if the guy is successful, went to an ivy league and earns a lot and is good looking. i feel like i have been rejected by all the successful people from that particular nationality or ethnicity or organization. This is a bias i cant get over.

Most of my motivation comes from the fact that i am driving in a ferrari and fucking over the people that dont like me for some reason.