Yesterday was a day, not only was it my birthday but it was my cardio check-up day (every year) for my heart condition (from birth)... I'm stable.

I had requested to meet with the head of department (because I know he is open-minded) when booking the appointment to discuss a few ways to improve my treatment. Instead met with an intern who threw all my carefully researched ideas out (I am in the medical field myself) the window whilst two female trainees were giggling in the room while checking their phones.

So here I was discussing also very personal issues like, whilst I can have sex etc... as soon as women (and "healthy people") find out (which they sooner or later) they ghost me or flat out tell me "sorry it's too weird I'm afraid you are going to die while we fuck" (which is one of the least likely way I'd die but ok).

My ex left me because of my health calling me a weak pussy in my back when talking to the guy she cheating on me with.

This with the giggling trainees still in the room...

Intern did keep one of my ideas (of course claimed it was his ...) but still, that's only one out of like 10, and not the most critical one.

I was hoping for some form of closure, some sort of clear path... And as usual I am left questioning.

Ironically, its snowing today, and it very rarely snows...