I'm 20 years young, and have pretty much given up on the thought of ever marrying happily ever after blah blah blah. After my last breakup ended I immediately decided to never date again. You see, my ex contacted my best bud, a guy I grew up with. A guy she said she'd never do anything with (which I knew was a lie but I gave her the benefit of the doubt). Why would you go after my best friend and try to fuck him IMMEDIATELY after we break up? And my friend even wanted to go through with it! but they never got anything on, according to him. Whatever. I've been burned before and cheated on but I'm done with trying with women.

You see, after I had time to grieve, I wanted to get some action to get my mind off the breakup that occasionally pops back up in my head. I decided to start hooking up with local women to just get my fix then leave. But i noticed the women I hook up with are..married. At first I didnt want to do anything, because I didn't want to be a home wrecker, but I was thinking with my dick instead and just got what I wanted because fuck everyone. But it seems like no one is ever loyal. Someone will always want someone else. Is this the truth I've been blind to? I know men cheat too, but God damn these women give 0 fucks. One woman I hooked up with told me her husband isn't big and he doesn't go down on her anymore. I just do not understand why that would give you a reason to cheat. Another one I met had kids by her husband and all, posting pics all happy with her husband on Facebook but was in my inbox wanting to fuck at her job since her husband was at home.

Look, I know cheating is nothing new, but fuck I'm so scared to ever give a bitch my heart. I used to be afraid that I'll never find love but now I don't ever want to marry. Ever. Women will turn on you for the littlest shit ever. They will fuck your best mate. They don't give a shit about anything. No matter what you do or how much you've done for them, they can throw it all away for another pot of gold. Love is not real. It never has been.