English is not my first language. Sorry for bad formatting I'm on my mobile.

It's hard to avoid looking at couples in malls, theaters, beach pretty much anywhere outside. They look so happy. You might say they are not happy and have other problems. I was a bluepilled simp. Somehow i ended up in mgtow.

after reading everything,Lurking posts for months i became a mgtow.

I'm glad i became mgtow and escaped divorce rape and bunch of other stuff.

But.. Sometimes especially when I look at couples, hot girls i feel sad, ashamed.

Am I going to be lonely forever?

Friends are great but its not the same. Friends are also getting married. Everyone is asking about my marriage. Everyone around me is bluepilled AF

I try my best to avoid those topic.

All most all the songs are about love or love failure.

I really don't like metal so don't suggest that.

I cry sometimes. No one to share your life with, I'm lost guys.

I go to gym I work out. I play video games. I try everything I can to distract my mind from loneliness.

But sometimes i just can't. This loneliness is so bad..