So. I don’t post here often. But I’m struggling a bit. I recently got out of a relationship with a woman who I believe has BPD. I’ve been no contact with her for close to 3 months now. I’m really enjoying life again finally. I have a decent day job. I help out on a farm in the evenings (easy money) I am working towards getting my own mobile welding business off the ground as well as two musical projects (again, easy money), both with very great people to play with and to just be around (one group being a very well paying gig for the area). The thing is I find myself still having feelings for this crazy lady, and yet feeling absolute resentment and hatred for her as well. Has anyone else been in this situation? How did you finally get the thoughts out of your head? I’ve been fairly red pilled throughout my life after experiencing my parents divorce, but have just recently discovered this is actually a thing in the last four months. I’m plating several women at this point. But I live in a rural area, making it slightly more challenging to meet quality women than what you city bucks have going on. My ex literally lives a block and a half away from me at the moment. Idk what I’m asking exactly other than how does a man get rid of the thoughts that bound him to a crazy ex to begin with? Any info/criticism will be greatful. Thank you gents.