Typing on my phone, so please bare w/ me.

Not to sound mean, but I don’t want angry incel advice. Just a good reasonable mgtow who might have been in a similar boat.

Been with a girl for 5+ years now. She was the type of girl that like going to bars and clubs with her “girls”.

I set some initial boundaries stating that if we were going to be in a relationship, she couldn’t go to bars or any nightlife type of shit, since I don’t really do that (she was the one pushing for an official relationship).

Everything was fine when she was living at home, but she’s recently moved in with a divorcee (woman).

Last night we were supposed to hang out, but she cancelled our plans to go out w/ the divorcee bitch. She didn’t call me or text me until the morning.

As of now I told her I want to break up. She sent me a long wall of text saying that I’m controlling, that it is my loss, that I’m immature (and dumb) and to have some balls and break up in person. This has happened before, and every time we meet in person I cave and just say “fuck it” to preserve the comfort that the relationship brings me. That is why I’d rather just do it through text.

She also pushes for trust, but the one time I looked at her phone (early in the relationship) I saw that she messaged some hardcore orbiter who had been messaging her non-stop. I somehow forgave this since the messages didn’t prove anything, she didn’t say anything incriminating just, “it was funny running into you” etc.

Part of me knows I need to stick to my guns and end this, but another part of me is scared of the regret that might come 10 years down the line when I think back on all of the good memories and of her. My family loves her, she is also very attractive to beta cucks everywhere, so I am sure she will be with someone soon after me(...something something monkey branch).

Idk I feel like a weak bitch, the blue pill lifestyle just allows me to turn my brain off for emotional shit and concentrate on school & career stuff in a more relaxed way.

I’m scared that if I go through with this I won’t be able to concentrate on important things like school etc. for a while due to the pain in my stomach from the breakup and possible regret and neediness that being single brings.

What should I do? I do care about her, but I also want to live that ruthless mgtow/hedonistic lifestyle my babies.