I'm not sure what to do about this because it's been plaguing my life recently, but this is the community I most align with, so I'm asking you guys.

For most of my life, I did my best to be the hardest working, best possible person I could be. I was motivated and disciplined. This was especially during high school and my first year of University. I woke up at 5:30 and was scheduled and went above and beyond in everything. I think my reason was women. I spent my entire childhood being taught that I need to be the best I can be, so I can marry a good woman.

Once I found MGTOW, I lost motivation to work hard. I used to push myself because I wanted to be competitive, but now I don't have a reason to work hard. I want to be successful, but it's like I am not able to do anything about it.

Before you guys ask, I have above average testosterone for my age. I don't work out because of an chronic injury, but I am in good shape. I'm still in school. I just don't know what to do because I am definitely not motivated by marriage. If I don't do something I'll probably lose my job and get worse grades in school.