Without a doubt a bad childhood has a lot to do with what happens in the future. I had a lackluster childhood and I never had any love. Which made me be thirsty for love all my life. I’ve always been a beta, trying to be that romantic guy. I was fairly good looking so I got attention mainly on social media. I found an older woman about 7 years.. she’s like a 6.75 has fake boobs.. green eyes but wasn’t the most attractive. Honestly, thinking about it now I kind of did get catfished but her eyes and her skin were beautiful. She pretended to be everything in the beginning. She had a promiscuous past which I ignored.. and god was it a mistake. She was living with the man she told she was raped by in the beginning .. she told him that I was stalking and harassing her because I’d check her phone. She’d break up with me out of nowhere and go on dating sites .. go to guys house and god knows what she did. It’s horrible if I was to mention everything. Truth is she did what she did and I had every chance to leave but I didn’t. Until I did one day and I still tried to go back that’s how bad it was. The woman was a whore.. and everything she did supported that. Also a covert narcissist and if you know you’d know.

After that I spoke to and dated a few girls and I honestly see everything. The manipulation a man goes through because of the automatic victimization of women. Which is why I’ve not really done anything with a woman for some time now.

I’m at that stage of my life where I want to move on. It’s been a year and things have got much better. I still think about the sex and sometimes about how she manipulated me. I miss the sex but I fucking hate her like I’ve never hated before. I want to text her and go off on her. FIRST QUESTION: how do you overcome that?

Secondly, how does one take care of sexual needs? In mgtow. I’m 22 with a very high libido.

Thirdly.. what’s your opinion on religion? I come from a Muslim family and honestly I’ve come to realize the importance of gender roles that it had brought forward. A modest and pious woman is so important because if not it is basically so easy for a woman to seek other things. Also looking at Islam makes me realize how crap this world has gone to in terms of morality and lust. You are free to say whatever you want on this no offense taken.

Lastly, in terms of loneliness I’ve lost a lot of my friends. I have a few who are just losers. What are your tips in gaining sociability in society?

Thanks guys.