Hello mgtows! Well, I really seldom post but I was taking my daily dose of red pills and thought about asking for some advice.

You know, advice: that what you ask for when you know what to do but really don't wanna do it.

Background: I have been with my ex for 4 years, I was really blue pilled and never been good finding girls and all. Actually got only 4 LTRs in my life. Big red flag, and don't be hard on me, she was living with another guy. She just went after me like crazy and I thought he was an abusive guy and all. You know, same old history, but I tried to be not a total jerk and realized he was a good guy.

Well, things got weird, I found the willpower to quit the relationship, it was really unfair for him (dunno if he ever knew) and for me too since I realized she wouldn't leave him unless going for higher status and all.

And actually I am a caregiver for my grandma, low income and all... Trying to improve even if it's difficult in my situation. Also I spend everyday home because she needs me. Kinda overweight and zero chances of find a girl with my life, read above the part I were saying I were not good picking girls.

Not really incel I still got a couple chances... But god... They were 2-3s, I am out of Tinder, and don't try much since I found mgtow I am not that interested.

Aaaaanyway, I found myself fantasizing about my ex maybe quite too much, also checking her wassap even if we haven't talk in 2 months. Also I left her 2 years ago. And today just found a box with some nonsenses I kept from the relation and well... I mostly overcome this but it's kinda difficult to not compare or think about her, specially in my situation where I am mostly home and in a kinda bad situation while is evident she keeps traveling and all. One year ago she tried to kiss me, we coincide in work from time to time, could be a week and then months without coincide and all...

So... Any tips? Is this normal? Is not really love but sure I would do her. How much it takes to overcome all this? I got the impression I think about someone who is long gone and doesn't give a f. about me even if we were together for 4 years.