Well, there was a specific incident that triggered once again these long-harnessed emotions.

Yesterday evening I was boarding a bus and some teen whore pushed me (hip to hip, shoulder to shoulder) to get on it before me. There have been occasions when I have pushed back such entitled bratty sluts and stand my ground but this one was too pushy. She tried on two times, even coughing demonstratively to draw my attention demanding to make her way. I ignored her, but eventually she pushed past me and walked ahead with a victorious smile. If I were to push back I'd have to exert too much force and slam her in the door which would draw attention. And I'm a law professional, it could become quite big embarassment. But why shall it be like that?

Here comes the big issue - why shall I have to fight back hiddenly, why can't I defend myself openly and with pride? Because of society and it's double standards. Because of all those shitty people who believe because she's a girl I have to make way for her. Really? And why? Am I less of a person? Why not she make way for me as a man to go first? I hate those ppl with all my heart.

This is not the first such incident I have had in my life. Years ago in university there was such a situation with a co-student (again female) who did not accept I may be going first through a door and after pushing past me said 'Sorry' with а sneering tone. And a few years earlier some 7-8 yo chav pushed me again when boarding a bus, causing me almost lose balance. For the record, I'm 6'3 yet it somehow managed to overpower me. I make a stride and it pushed me with its body in the legs running past me. What if I had defended myself and throw the little punk to the ground or at least hit him? We can guess it might have had bad consequences - for me.. So because they are smaller or weaker I have to make them way? But when I was small and weak I didn't get in the way of bigger people pushing them. How come I'm expected to make way for kids, women, older people - everyone. Why? Why me being disrespected for being a young man? Why shall I be in the bottom of totem pole? Why shall there be a totem pole at all?!

Those who know me know my deep despise for western culture and white race (to which I'm unlucky to belong) but this issue goes even beyond these borders. Even if I was in Saudi Arabia or Islamic State, if some woman was cutting my way and I push or hit her probably it would have repercussions unless I'm some cop or warlord..

This world is so unjust I simply don't want to live here. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH and nothing really to look forward.

I spent the bus ride fantasizing how I pummel bitch's face to a bloody pulp. And then reminding myself about the consequences which are fault of society, I spent the rest of the journey dreaming about destroying society. Like running over scores of ppl with a SUV. Yeah, on a busy day in pedestrian street. Because I repeat, issue here is not just bitch being bitch, or even all bitches in the world but also everyone who supports them. Those very same ppl who believe that I shall make way for her being a woman, that it's OK for her to push me but it's not for me to push her back harder.

I DONT WANNA LIVE IN OPPRESSION. I DONT HAVE TO. THIS IS NOT CALLED 'LIFE'.

The only thing that brings some hope to me are the stories of those brave migrant men who assault, beat, rape, murder and disrespect unworthy women and manginas in every way possible. Those progressive guys who come here with the proper attitude to tear down this unjust social order so from the ashes we can build something better. So I totally support the invasion against our corrupt society, fake morals and rotten 'culture'.

Because I really have had enough of being bullied and assigned lower status for being a young man!!! I've had enough of disrespect and humiliation. If I lived in the USa I'd arm myself and shoot up a slutwalk or womens march. Those very same events that tell women they shall be even more pushy.

My logic mind knows this attitude is wrong but my heart sees no way out. I FEEL VIOLATED! Violated in my core and depraved of my fundamental right to be here.

These ppl in their blind ignorance dont realise that not everyone is made to take abuse without protest. There will always be rebels to fight back. And while here we may be isolated cases due to depraved upbringing, now here come some ppl who've been raised to value honor more than anything. Not punks like us but men with a sense or pride and honor. Who will not take shit from bitches. Who will not bow to pussy. I feel disgusted by the notion of chivalry and the fundament of western civilisation.

Now writing this, I may be blinded by my hurt ego. I probably went emotionally overboard. I guess I sound pathetic and irrational. But those emotions are genuine and there's a real issue that provokes them.

Why am I writing this? I don't know. I simply felt like sharing since it's too much to keep it to myself.. And I know, I'm sure there are some other guys here who can understand how I feel bc it's a thing valid for all of us. For all who have had enough being denied respect as equals.