She has issues.

I never once cheated on my husband, did I think about it? Yup sure did. The weekend we moved out of our house he kept the kids. I went to a friend's house I wasnt allowed to talk to because we were a former flame before I got married. I slept with him and did for about a month until things got weird. I started getting too clingy which I absolutely hate because damnit I want to seem like those strong independent women that don't need a man right? Here I am two months later, I stopped talking to that guy but it sucks. I want that "love", passion, attention I was missing from my ex husband . But now that's gone too and I feel like I'm just now experiencing the lash of divorce. I'm fucking lonely as hell, I want a nice warm body next to me at night and flirty texts through the day. But at the same time I want to focus on me and getting better. Lack of funds has me crashing at my parents until my school loans r paid about 6 months yet. Ugh. That makes me feel like such a failure. It sucks so bad. And on top of all of it I miss that guy I slept with! WTF. I feel like such a mess. Any thoughts ? Suggestions??