I have to get this off my chest.

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I identify as MGTOW, and I generally avoid women. I live a happy life with a home gym, a canoe, and a nice PC. I have had many relationships with women, and all have ended up due to the woman hiding mental illness or due to their overwhelming need to control the relationship and my life. I have become overtly aware of their maniupulation, lack of values, and complete absense of self-responsibility. I'm not oposed to dating, but a woman needs to be better than my solitude.

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So anyway, I have a former co-worker female friend, and I have always had a great relationship with her. She is brilliant and may be the smartest person in our profession in our area, simply a brilliant mind, and a 9/10. Super smart and commited to fitness. I also knew her husband back in college, he lived in the weight room and was incredibly well muscled, while also being an incredibly kind guy. Frankly, I was/am happy that they married eachother, it seemed like a good fit. What it did was make me eliminate (or repress) any sexual urges I had for her. We meet up about once a month at the gym or for drinks and talk, and she is my favorite person in our profession to talk to, simply brilliant. I feel like I am a better person after our conversations.

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Last weekend she (a mother of 2) effectivly said that her marriage was really stressful, and that she was interested in me fathering her next child. I'm really baffled, I have never heard of this. Then, I saw this post today: https://i.redd.it/sqxi1ak2oxg21.png

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  • 1). An emotional affair with someone in their social group or co-worker.
  • 2). She'd swap up with finances and status, and probably a better relationship.
  • 3). I think she may be thinkng about leaving him, and would use an affair as an excuse.
  • 4). She would justify the affair as a symptom of her husbands problems.
  • 5). I light up when I see her, and I think she enjoys being valued.
  • 6). I am NOT more attractive or fit than her husband. :) Delts like bowling balls, and his job is in the fitness industry.
  • 7). There may be a revenge component, I don't know.

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I think she's unhappy with her home life, unhappy with her husbands career prospects and earning potential, and I get the impression that he's not the brightest guy. I think she's had two kids with a genetic Alpha, and now wants to have a kid with a "smart guy" with a good career, (and I just told her I am planning out starting my own business) and escalating financial prospects.

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One half of me thinks that being with her would be wonderful, she's one my favorite humans (a unicorn?). Having two genetically gifted step-kids wouldn't be that bad, and then we would have our own brilliant kid. My business would greatly benefit from having her work there, she's one of the best. Then get a big house with a white picket fence and live happily ever after.

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The other half of me thinks that I just saw that AWALT, that she's reaching the wall, she's assessed where she is at in life, sees the status and financial security I'd give her, recognizes I'd be a good father, and is ready to move along, devoid of honor or character. She got her Alpha fucks, and now wants her Beta bucks. Also, I would never do that to a man who has showed me nothing but kindness.

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I feel like I just lost a cool friend. She is/was a valuable person to me, and it hurts. I know the path I'm going to take, but it hurts to watch your idols fall.

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One of the greatest things I've learned from this subreddit: I need to get a dog.