I've been mgtow for a while now and it was hard because I realized that almost everything I did was in some way for love, recognition by women, etc. I didn't really care for recognition if it didn't make it easier to get laid.

Its been so sad to me to think of my future anymore. I am a social hermit and I used to get by just thinking I would find the love of my life and maybe find a friend or two along the way. Now the only thing I see is that woman would be my biggest threat. These threads of men getting eviscerated by society terrify me.

I thought that I just needed time to recreate some of my motivational values, but time and logical effort have not given me any reason to do anything at all anymore. I don't want to leave anything behind for this sick culture.

I had the day off today so I decided to ultimatum myself and sit in my room doing nothing quietly until I got bored enough to do something that wasn't a forced mechanical routine. Maybe I would think about something I genuinely enjoy.

It's 5:34pm. Nearly twelve hours now and there's nothing. Absolutely nothing. I feel just like John Galt in Atlas Shrugged.

Why do any of you do anything? I don't want cars, a huge house, I just don't get it anymore. For any of you TRP people yeah I drink water and stay hydrated and exercise and eat healthy you retarded fuck.