ive been a MGTOW for a few years now. after my employer for whom ive worked for the last 5 years closed the company throwing me and other 30 employees to the street, i took this as an oportunity and started studying again, with the hope that i will be able to get a better job after doing so... im 28, ive gained some weight in the last 5 years because of my job, went from 65kg to almost 95kg now, but because im pretty tall i dont look fat at all. with each year that passed i saw my closest friends marry, fight, divorce, go to other countries and lost contact with some, other died, some of my dearest family members, like my grandpa and 3 of my uncles also died... i know this is stuff that happens to all of us, but the thing is, with every year i feel less human... i stopped caring about anyone... i stopped answering calls, i stopped answering whatsapps, i stopped feeling attraction, affection, hate, envy... everything. i just wake up in the morning and prepair my routine for the day and when i end the day i go to sleep... i dont feel any natural Impulse drives or needs... im tired of everything. Im tired of women and their fucked up minds, im tired of this fucked up society, im tired of seeing it go to worse every year and being unable to do anything. for the last week ive been constantly thinking everyday about taking my life because i dont see the point on keeping trying hard and "live" and "enjoy" life. How do you cope with this? how do you keep going? should i keep going ? what for?