No matter how much you improve yourself you are never perfect or good enough. I've come to this realisation when looking back at women I've dated and relationships I've had.

As you improve in social status the only thing that changes is that you get access to slightly hotter women, and with that increase in hotness comes increased expectations.

Your career is never sexy enough, house big enough, car luxurious enough, vacation days plentiful enough, your muscles big enough, your body fat low enough, your time spent on her long enough etc etc.

Perhaps there is a cutoff point where women can settle and cool down with all the demands she has on you but I haven't found it yet.

I'm at the point now where I have everything that could reasonably be expected of a man. I've got my shit together tight and I got the lifestyle to prove it. Nothing super fancy or deluxe but I live good. Even so I've been ditched by women who themselves had absolutely nothing going for them professionally or socially.

There was always that one thing about me that they couldn't change or some quirk of personality they deemed to be a deal breaker. Looking back there has been many reasons. My circle of friends weren't good enough (blue collar workers) my job wasn't sexy enough, the fact I like to play games on my computer (almost all of them had a major problem with that) the fact I had lived in Thailand and often still travel there. (instantly disqualify me in the eyes of many women as it comes with the sex tourist stigma or they simply won't accept giving themselves to a man who likes asian ladies as that is beneath them). A real man has access to quality white pussy or something?

It went so far that I started tailoring my social media accounts to give off a better image and to "hide" parts of my life women would find unattractive or unworthy.

Part of my drive to succeed has been in the pursuit of access to higher quality and quantity pussy and only now do I realize what a futile pursuit that has been. Sure I get a little more of it and they are slightly better looking but it is still have to deal with the same shit as I did was when I was 20 and owned nothing.

At this point I'm seriously contemplating a sugar daddy deal to meet my sexual needs as I have very little desire to have "relationship time" and only still eye the plantation because that's were the pussy is.

Celibacy or sexbots are not an option for me as I have certain esoteric sexual needs.

Edit: I'm not sure were I was going with this post but after thinking about it the gist is: I have spend most my life trying to tailor a life that I thought women would like. Getting that perfect house in the right neighborhood, furnishing it like an Ikea catalogue, working on my body to become fit, taking jobs I didn't enjoy because they came with perks and more money. Now that I possess a lifestyle women probably find attractive I've come to realize it doesn't mean anything to me and that I'd rather liquidate all assets and buy a small guesthouse in Thailand and live frugally and stress free.