9 months after she ruined my life and I've hit an interesting place in my anger and pain and sadness where I no longer fantasize revenge or beating the shit out of her or ruining her life.

I have hit such a point of disgust for the betrayal I experienced that I now view her as a sub-human not worthy of my time and effort and couldn't give a flying fuck what happens to her or where she goes next in her life.

I believe this is the final destination of hatred. Beyond agonizing anger to complete apathy.

And after this, the ultimate fuck you: forgiveness and success in my own life. I'm looking forward to that. She will hate me so much when I, wallowing in my own success, can with 100% confidence and lack of care look her dead in the eyes, crack a smile, and say "hey! good to see you, how are you? Oh, nice. Me? I'm doing EXCELLENT. Take care, have a good life." And its the ultimate fuck you because you no longer care. She has no power over you when you no longer care. And women can always tell when you no longer care.

You will get there some day, too.