I am almost 18 years old, never dated and am a virgin. I found out about MGTOW and the black pill stuff 6 months ago and its been dragging me down ever since as I have a very low Sexual Market Value because I am 5'10 and have a bad face from a downward grown maxilla and it looking feminine. I plan to never get married or have kids because kids and marriage never has interested me and isnt worth it.

What does interest me is having a girlfriend that is mine but I realise now that as a low SMV guy she will only be settling for me and trying to use me while she secretly rides the cock carousel with Chads. I doubt I can become a chad due to my lack of hyper masculine face and low self esteem. I always get rejected by girls and now I feel like its best to give up on girls and live life going my own way. But the problem is that living life seems pointless because of how bad the world is and lack of things that I enjoy in it.