just another knight where i go to try to go to sleep without anybody who’s truly there for me . i’m sick and fucking tired of waking up eating and then going back to sleep . i don’t know how much longer i can do this without drinking myself into another stooper and asking for advice just for someone to say “just don’t drink bro” i constantly tell myself i’ll achieve a goal by not talking to women but i feel like i’m digging a hole that doesn’t end . at the same time , i knew how toxic and disgusting most women are . i need help now i feel like i’m drowning