I'm going to tell it like it is. I am a career beta. It's taken me 4 years of marriage to realize this. I'm pretty sure my marriage is irreparable because of it. I don't really even have any desire to try and fix things at the moment. The amount of things I've let other people take from me makes me nauseous. All I know is that I need to change. I need to take the red pill. I need to find a Morpheus (preferably one who barks like a drill sargent). I've already taken steps to take my life back, but I need help to do this all the way. I'm currently reading NMMNG and WISNIFG. Getting the gym membership tomorrow. I am doing this. I just need a little help from my friends...