My wife was suicidal and dealing with a pregnancy that was both mentally and physically devastating to her. During her first obgyn appointment she confessed these feelings and asked about an aborting the baby. The doctor told her the facts. It was hard because we both wanted another baby after having to rough pregnancy before and births that could have killed her. I did not want an abortion but thought she could push through it if I gave her a deadline. Unfortunately she did have the abortion and i am slowly getting over it. I spent a night away from my family to deal with my anger and now have rejoined them in the healing process. I only hope God can forgive me for pushing her into it.