Hi! I am a 35m.

I deal with bi-polar 2. I take medication for it, but it’s not good enough. Bi-polar depression has definitely made my life harder. I’ve been through trials and tribulations throughout my life. The past 5 years have been absolutely life changing for me. Everything to divorce, death of a loved one, alcoholism, constant unemployment, etc…

I understand the holiday season is absolutely depressing for a lot of people (especially men). I honestly don’t even have the holiday spirit in me anymore, that disappeared after my divorce. lol. But I’ve come to realize in life, it’s not about making yourself happy through self absorbing tactics, but help making others happy in a time of stress. That gives me joy, seeing others happy. My mom is dealing with my sun downing grandmother, and she’s extremely distressed and depressed. She asked me to celebrate Christmas with her. She knows how I feel about Christmas. But that doesn’t stop me from helping her be happy. She wants to be with her son.

My point in all of this, instead feeling depressed and lonely during the holidays. Go out there and do a selfless act and help someone else feel happy. In return, you might feel happy yourself!