So without diving too deep and personal and disclosing the novel which is my life story ..I'm gunna try to keep it simple.

I have been alienated from my children for almost 10yrs now. I've done the best I could to keep going and move on with my life with the hope that one day it will be made right. I've suffered so much over the years. Not just from crippling depression and trauma from being helplessly ripped out of my children's life, but also financial ruin. Child support has made it impossible for me to get anywhere in life. I've been homeless multiple times because of it...Lost jobs because of it... vehicles...my license...even been jailed for falling behind.

I just found out through a friend, who did some social media snooping for me, that my ex (the baby momma) has just bought a house. A nice one too. It's big, 3 car garage, large in-ground pool, 2 kitchens, nice suburban neighborhood, you get the point.

Obviously my ex has come into a large amount of money. From what I have been able to see on casenet, she been battling in civil court for the past several years. But I can't find out the outcome or details because it doesn't disclose that info, plus apparently it was sent to federal court. But my hypothesis is she won a large settlement.

Meanwhile here I am...poor af, living in squallor, well below poverty level. They garnish at least 60% of my pay. Tax returns, stimulus check, all intercepted. I am constantly facing eviction and utility shut offs because I just can't make enough to survive, much less get ahead or save up. I walk over a mile to work in rain, snow, cold, and heat because they suspended my license, not that I can afford to even own a car anyway. Every day is a struggle...and there's no end in sight. I try very hard to stay strong, to be humble and thankful. Some days are better than others obviously, but overall I been pretty good about not letting things get to me so much and making the best of what I have.

I'm not even jealous. Obviously, like it would be to anyone else, it is kinda a blow to the gut. Feels completely unfair. But life is not fair. But honestly, I am glad to know that my kids are well provided for and getting to live the good life.

So what I am wondering is whether this could affect the child support amount? I can't afford to even get on my feet, and she just bought a huge house (well over $500k). All I have wanted and been trying to do is build a life, one that is stable, one that I could have my kids in again. But I struggle to just keep my electric on and food in the fridge.

Is there something I should do? Or can do even? Is it even worth it? I can't afford a lawyer. But anyone out there got any advice or suggestions? Thank you for reading.