I had my first handjob at a massage parlour with someone I don't know, I am feeling guilty & ashamed & stupid not because it's wrong or anything but for being pretty stupid and incapable of finding a girl who really interested in me sexualluly and not do it for money,

I know it's not a big thing for many people but I am very sensitive person so it's keep on haunting me and worst I haven't even shared it with anyone so it keeps repeating!!