I think I'm finally in the right mindset.

I no longer crave porn because I cannot realistically imagine myself having sex with a girl. Every time I try, it's a bigger boner killer than the new Star Wars movies.

And no-- I don't watch the movies and I'm just going off what I hear other people say because I'm cultureless swine

I'd rather live in this mindset that I simply can't find someone and believe I'll die alone instead of keep trying to find someone and fail each time, to the point of being so depressed my chest physically aches and I'm left wanting to hang myself with my own dental floss.

There's a certain comfort that comes with this assurance. No second-guessing, no assumptions of my life ever changing...

Just this.

Maybe I'm finally okay with it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Good luck to y'all-- maybe a taste of the black pill will help in coming to this mindset.