Mission: raise my family. Eventually, fostercare. Why would u question why a woman is necessary for childrearing?

Stats: 5'10, 205lbs. Working on form, so no idea what my lift numbers are. Latpildowns at 185 lbs for 5 reps is all I know, and sets of 20 push ups

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Spiritual: raised in church. Have been living as a Christian consistently for 4 years.

Issue: got saved and eloped with my wife because we were in sin. I love her. My issue is that her body count has always bothered me. Sometimes more than others. We were very sexual and I feel loved and respected because she goes great lengths to satisfy me. It torments me to realize she has given the same for dozens of other men and women.

Is her body count being an issue for me in any way justified? Am I justified in feeling she has wronged me by her past by giving me leftovers? Am I justified in feeling of less value since I get leftovers? God said virigintity was a big deal, but he also had Hosea marry gomer. I have issue accepting both that virginity > heavy promiscuity and relative sexual experience is more valuable than having dozens of other partners, while at the same time feeling ok with my situation.

If this isnt from God, why do I feel this way? Feminists say it doesnt matter at all, while TRP says it's all that matters. What is Gods stance?