How can I honor my parents, when they do so many things to control my life, my personality, for the worst and do so many worthless things?

Even if I forgive them, that doesn’t matter. Those things never change. This is in regards to Scripture and RP.

The more I invest trying to desl with them, the worse my lifr has become

The more I better myself, the more they are intent on destroying it.

There is no peace, no normal relationship, no transparancy, no honesty, and only control, accusation and mocking in their presence. For what the one does right to me and others, the other destroys

Whenever I have confronted it, things are turned around, I’m accused, and evil done to me will be defended or obfuscated

How do I honor people like this?

I have imposed on myself to honor them, because of the Scriptures, to obey them, and to listen to them, and it has brought me only destruction and apathy

I don’t see anything changing even if I forgivr akl the evil done to me, which I have done and tried to a thousand times, it seems more like permission to never change then anything else.