Had a fucking awesome RP night last night, and wanted to write up a field report. Felt it was more appropriate here.

  • Childhood I grew up an only child raised by my mother taking care of her every need. All my validation came from making sure that she was okay - and when I didn't, shed punish me emotionally and reject me for a few days until I submitted and crawled back to her.

  • The end of a 5 year LTR It ended in October after a) she moved 1500 miles away to the west to become a vet b) our sex life had died 3 years earlier, c) I realized I loved and respected her, but never enjoyed her company. I didn't know it then, but I was submissive and very blue pill, and she lost her sexual attraction. I broke it off and did a lot of meditating on life.

  • Yesterday Afternoon Was fucking awesome. Started the evening at 4pm having coffee with a coworker whom I adore, and spent the hour flirting and talking about our relationship. She's a great woman, but has a lot of baggage from her past that make her prioritize her needs over others. I told her I just can't be in that kind of relationship, and we "agreed to disagree." I still love the woman, but we're just not in a physical or relationship. In the past, I would have done anything to have this woman call me her boyfriend

  • Yesterday evening Went to the pool hall with my two friends, and had a fucking blast. The last thing on my mind was to pick up women. I rocked out to the music, slapped guys on the back, improvised a swing-dance to the beastie boys song "Girls" with a girl-friend of mine... Within an hour I had a beautiful blonde bombshell asking for my phone number.

Her: Hey, I want to ask you out on a date.

Me: Haha, what is this? I this high school?

H: Your cute and I want your number.

M: Give me your phone..

H: No. I want your number. It's a control thing.

M: ::Grumble:: New age feminism....

H: ::Smile, holding up her phone.:: Okay, what is it?

M: (582) 999-9999

H: Are you kidding me?

M: ::I touch the sides of her abdomen, smiling:: Yeah... (we joke for a few minutes and I give her my number... she shows me her phone to verify, and I take it away and hit SEND. She tries to grab it before my phone rings, but is too late).

H: (just as she's about to walk away, she asks) What do you do?

M: I wash ducks.

H: You wash ducks?

M: Yeah, the east coast has a TON of ducks that need cleaning during the winter time. The state hires me to clean them. My apartment is filthy.

H: Do you use dawn?

M: No way! That's way too harsh. Baby shampoo is best.

H: (Shes walking away backwards, smiling) I'll call you.

M: (She walks away, and I feel like she's playing games with me. So I text her "Games. All games").

H: (She comes back to check that we're okay. We flirt and she leaves).

Moral of the story: I'm really fucking loving life. I love myself, my friends, and the women whom I'm attracted to.

Thanks RP!