Ok here's another "is there something as alpha widowed men?" Post.

Today I met my ex, she's a true 9 at least actually she got slightly thinner than when we broke up last year. I don't have any kind of hard feelings, remorse, sorrow or whatever, but I have momories...

After we broke up I went zero-contacts with her but since I use autolikers on Tinder we matched and then on another app (called once) they matched and so di Happn... crap the odds were like 0.00000001% but still it happened, apart from those absolutely no contact.

She's not the reason I joined TRP, I had already awakened before and was reading TRP while being with her, actually the reason I killed my BP self was my first love before her and that girl was the "reason" why I broke up with my ex (since I refused to rip her pictures and delete her from FB because I never do).

I cognitively know the odds of finding another woman in that league are small. The sex wasn't truly great in terms of pleasure but it was in terms of emotions, commitment and validation. Don't get me wrong I think we were paired up so my SMV isn't any lower still is it hard to find true catches out there.

Women like this have most likely a BPD (she had), and after all it's all about weighing if the loss of freedom that stems from her inevitable shift in behaviour is worth the validation and sex that comes from being with a hot girl. Don't get me wrong again I don't advocate for seeking validation from HBs, actually quite the opposite, but let's face it when you have a hot girl, even though you got your shit together and success still adds up something to your life.

I came from a relationship that involved swinging before her and had other 2 of the kind after her and that was something she couldn't deal with and was a big problem, but the main problem is that she was seeking CONTROL over me.

My biggest mistake - and this is the lesson I learned and want to share with you guys - was to concede power lest our imbalance would lead to lack of love and emptiness... that bullshit! My male hamster was spinning and eventually dead of heart attack... never ever EVER EVER be ashamed of holding the power and NEVER concede any, that's when it really went downhill.

A BPD will never forgive you for becoming magnanimous and my weakness is that I'm not a natural dark triad (even though I'm faking it to make it now) so all of the public fucking in the middle of the... day :) is forever gone and can't be replaced by miss perfect housewife.

Ok, time to move on and take my FWB to the swingers club, these are my 2 cents

Lessons (re)learned: Never concede power, keep frame, even though you love her fuck her like a slut in an Asian brothel, DGAF attitude.