Hi,

5 years of our marriage passed and my wife started to tell me I have a small dick. Well, it's not huge, actually I am on the lower border of the average, but everything was OK (she did not criticize me) until that moment. She also stopped wearing her ring around that time.

I know, that by that time she secretly met her ex boyfriend, but denies any sexual contact. Also, this guy denies that, as I contacted him.

But honestly, if I would bang your wife and then you would contact me about this, would I be crude enough to cause this wonderful woman some trouble?

After 2 more years of my marriage I realized I don't trust that at all and I am getting a divorce. Those parts just do not fit (pun unintended).

She told me her count was 1, but that did not count handjobs and blowjobs obviously.

My questions: do you think she had some sexual contact? why would she suddenly realize she wants a bigger D? or was that just a manipulation?

For me this obviously looks like a case when she was fucked by another guy (this could be the ex, but not only), then realized, that I will never give her sexual satisfaction. Then - why would she start to call my dick small, because I am a good beta provider? Why would not she just left me?

And, how do you think: why this matters for me so much? I see traits of addictive behavior in me when it comes to her case; not only I would like to understand myself here, but I'd love to get rid of such behaviours, unfortunately, in some cases, like yesterday, I get enough tension and I act out.