I went from 'only wants to fuck' to the 'nice guy' via an effort to prove I didn't 'just want to fuck'. Now you'll ask, why didn't you just want to fuck? Well I wanted a little something more, and I had another girl that I was hooking up with, so I figured I was fine.

So we met after she resisted (didn't want to see me after coming to the conclusion I was just going to use her/she probably found out about the other girl). We had a talk, and I convinced her that I didn't want to to 'just fuck' but I didn't want to get into a relationship. She said she just got out of a relationship and she didn't want to get into one either. Everything was good, and the proper attraction was back just like that.

Hell yeah, that went well. Then I proceeded to bluepill the rest of the day with her, being indecisive about where to go, hardly touched her since I was driving, and didn't escalate anything until I kissed her at the end, dropping her off back at her car.

Caught up in the moment, I thought things were fine. (I rested on my past laurels instead of remembering that women respond emotionally, not rationally. Attraction can be a fleeting thing.)

Ah regrets, you suck. I killed it. I had it in my head that 'you need to prove to her you don't want to 'just fuck''. So...I wound up chopping my balls off. Hindsight, after talking and when the attraction was back, I could have just gone home and fucked her. I didn't have an idea for after if things went well, and in the moment, I completely forgot how I was the last time I saw her and brought her home with me.

Last time we spoke, she was negative about my ideas to get together. Now, I'm just waiting shit out, not being needy from here on out. I'm not going to keep up the nice guy thing and shower her with attention. Rather, just the opposite. She can wonder wtf happened, and work to get my attention back.

My advice to avoid falling into the old bad bluepill habits? Have a plan in your head. Stop, and remind yourself what you really want. When in doubt, escalate. Break rapport, especially 'safe/casual' rapport.