Background
Disclosure: I'm Underage
It’s been almost 4 months since my last FR: I’ve not been doing much in terms of game. Why? I’m not lazy I swear – the cards are not stacked in my favour when it comes to school. Those in the unofficial RP discord server will know why; in short, I ruined my reputation a year ago and it’s not healing any time soon. Outside of school I’ve had some prospects, but nothing’s come of it. It was only until yesterday that I had a date – 3 months feels long - and that’s what I’m going to talk about today. The girls name will be B.

Funnily enough, this time last year was the first time I hit B up. We used to talk in the computer room, and as a way for me (billy beta) to show my extreme confidence to my oneitis I proved it was easy to talk to someone new (she lacked/lacks confidence and wouldn’t hit up a guy she’s made no progress with in two years). Did I like B when I hit her up last year? Maybe. I orbited the other girl; but I had the abundance mentality to know to go for multiple girls. She was alright, but nothing I’d ever see myself with.

After a month or two I realised that I liked B – she wasn’t reciprocating. I don’t blame her, I didn’t even lift then – and I had a mop on my head. She became a part of my friendship group – and I’d talk to her and the girl I orbited in the computer room at lunch. Fast forward to when I stopped Orbiting the other girl: B had my full unwavering attention. Mix her disinterest and my persistence: I was a creep. She stuck around though, and as I lost orbit of one girl I entered the orbit of another. But it’ll be different this time – It wasn’t. 2 months of orbiting later she starts going out with a friend of mine: shit hurt. I knew what was best for me, so I cut all ties with her. Thank God.

From there: no contact until September – a week after my first kiss that I talked about in my other FR. My gains and my fresh trim must have made her an opportunist. We started talking more, but I never saw her as anything. Turns out my disinterest mixed with her interest made a combination that made me even more irresistible (who knew?). Eventually, after casual escalation (I don’t have to like you to escalate), she unblocks me on her social media and adds me. I accepted.

It’s now December, a week before the last day of term. We’ve been talking in the meantime both in school and over DMs, but it wasn’t my top priority. I kept going to the gym. I kept working at school. I eventually ask her on a date for after the last day of term. She accepts, then flakes on the day. Whatever, I got a sick chest pump that afternoon instead.

If this was me in the past, I’d have tried to rearrange something. No. This is new me; she flaked on me so it’s her job to make plans. If she’s interested there will be new plans. If she’s not, then I’m just going to be wasting her time trying to change her mind. Turns out, she hit me up. Invites me out to Christmas shopping – great, I love shopping. She starts throwing on some attitude that I instantly dismiss by saying that I might as well not go – she backtracks instantly. I decide that I might as well get out the house and join her – so I accept.

The Day

It's been too long since my last date: I actually started to feel a bit nervous whilst I was waiting in the shop we chose to meet at. She came in a minute after I did; we leave and get on with the shopping. After visiting a few shops and friendlily just touching her every now and then, she suggests that we head to the Arcade - she wants to spend time with me, that's nice. I accept and we walk there. In terms of escalation I tapped her when we saw a yellow car - nothing too major as we were just walking.

We get to the arcade and see a gaggle of kids from my year. I greet them all, but it seemed as if B was awkward. Whether it was because she was with me or I was with her (it was the former - she thinks that she's a sucker and I'm a God - I am). Thankfully, the others left pretty fast as they had to catch their bus which arrived at a stop 5 minutes down the road in 4 minutes time. It gave us an opportunity to play air hockey and generally bond over a few arcade games - I find that it is better to do something other than just talk: keeps it memorable and fun. After 6 or 7 rounds we both feel adequately content so I suggest we get drinks - I a hot chocolate and her a milkshake. Whilst sitting overlooking the coast - it was surprisingly warm outside - I lightly poke her and she pokes me back: this continues about 20 times until I just rest my hand on her thigh. She didn't physically recoil, but she's been known to not react when she's not comfortable to something so I retract when she tells me to get off. Normally I'd listen to the girls actions, but she probably didn't know how to act.

From there I suggest that we still haven't got anything yet, so we should go back shopping. She would rather walk along the beach and go to a play area I frequented when I was younger - her idea was better. Up to now, I hadn't encountered any shit tests so I must've been doing something wrong. I needed something that would get her heart racing and emotions stirring. There's two bridges that cross an empty canal, where on the other side is the play area. We skip the first bridge and head to the second one, where I reminisce in childhood memories where I used to draw in chalk on the pavements I was walking on. On the way there are some brick beach sheds, with a small alley in between them. Perfect.

"Hey B, you sure you want to go through there? It looks scary; someone could do... this."

I pull her bag so she's in my grasp, lightly push her against the wall and pin her arms above her. Should I have gone for the kiss? Probably. But that was never the intention of the act. As I said, I wanted to make her heart race and emotions flutter, and that I did. After that, something in her decided to spark up: I could see it in her eyes. After 4 seconds of holding it I let go and we carry on on our path to the play area. I wrap my arm around her waist, she doesn't say no.

At the park, we go to a big basket swing. It used to fit 4 of us back in the day. I picked her up and placed her in it, making sure her legs are open enough for me to fit between. Her thighs were tight: fuck. She wasn't ready yet. Then again, I wouldn't fuck her in a park anyway - would make for a good makeout though. From there I retracted myself and started swinging her, then we both got in together and I hinted at pulling her close - she stayed rigid and firm. Whilst there she asks if my parents are home - no - and suggests that she comes back to mine - sure. I was thinking - fuck this is gonna be easy.

On the way back to my house, it's about a 15 minute walk from where we were, we pop into a home-bargains where she suddenly finds loads of great gifts for her parents. My house was only down the road now and I ask her what we're going to do. She says she doesn't know, so I laugh and walk her into my house. With hindsight, I should of kissed her there. But I didn't. I show her around my humble abode and take her upstairs to my bedroom. First thing she notices was my PC, then my cat. She fell in love with my cat.

Whilst in my room, I try what my fathers taught me. First I cuddle her from behind, then I start lifting up her top. She physically recoils. Fuck. Two steps forwards one step backwards is gonna be the game. Fast forward 5 minutes of talking. This time she's sitting on my bed. I gently push her but she stays firm and rigid. Alright... what now. She stands to go stroke my cat again, so I wrap one arm around her waist and pull her in to me, where I try to do the same top trick. She's not biting. At the same time she seems disinterested, she keeps pushing back the time her parents are meant to pick her up. Eh? I take it as a hint to keep trying, and with 30 minutes to go until her new pickup date she asks what we should do, hinting to "bone". I'm like sure. But she's still not opening. Eh?

20 minutes to go I realise that I forgot to buy condoms on the way out. Fuck. I say this just to forewarn her, and she asks if my dad would have any. You what? I look anyway, and with no luck I just pull her into my arms and hug her. It was now that I learn what's going on. She didn't think I was serious. I'm that far out of her league she's thinking it's a joke and she thinks if we do anything I'll just tell my mates and laugh at her. Sheesh, how do I counter that? Add comfort? I look her in the eye and say I want to do something with her. But to no avail.

7 minutes to go. My parents come home. Ahh well. She meets them, says hello, then I walk her to her pickup. No kiss on departure because she was running late.

After the fact

She's well and truly down. With some time out of the awkwardness and tenseness of the environment she had time to reflect on what just happened - like how I am doing now - it's clear that she knows she missed out on something. Instantly in my DMs she asked when I'm next free so we can meet up again - at least I've done something correct.

Reflections

It was a fun experience; an experience I needed so that I know what to do next time. I did fall in a few areas:

  • She didn't think I was being serious because I didn't kiss her.
  • She didn't have enough comfort to do anything.
  • She wanted me to try to open her up a little more.
  • I didn't have a rubber anyway.

That said, I did use some tactics that I probably stole from somewhere:

  • ADD SOME SPICE - Girls want danger. Girls want passion and emotions. If things are getting monotone, do something to spice it up. The look in her eyes after I pushed her against the wall compared to before was noticeable.
  • KEEP ESCALATING - Two forwards one back works.
  • KEEP IT INTERESTING - I never let it get boring. Even though it may have felt it at times, the tension in the air kept feels afloat.
  • NOTICE THE ATTITUDE AND SHUT IT DOWN - She was playing hard to get at that point- then I say some magic words and pow, it's gone.

All in all, it was successful enough for my standards. There are still some things I can't work out:

  • Why would she hint at having sex but when I escalate not follow through? Inexperience?
  • Why would she keep pushing the time backwards, yet not be up to doing anything? Nervousness? Not enough comfort?