Summary

I backed out of a certain hookup/potential threesome due to risk aversion, standards, and a revelation I wasn't ready for. Wall of text.

Body

About a week ago, I hooked up with a girl I'll never meet again, in another state, who ranks as probably the hottest woman I've ever hooked up with. I'm 28, she's 22. Alongside some massive career gains in the last 8 months, a rekindling of my interests and hobbies, and a steady social life, I've been feeling better about my progress and taking riskier bets.

Long & short of it is, I live in a state where very few people know my past. There are two women, however, who traveled in similar circles where I used to live, and have used their social network to learn about me. To be brief, they are or have been at one point attracted to me. The reason I've not pursued either aggressively is because we also all work at the same company.

If I'm being frank with myself, they aren't very attractive. I met them in the middle of an LTR that divebombed right into my exposure to RP. The LTR has been over for a while now, and I'm mostly past the hard reset my life needed to move forward. These girls, however, have both shown IOIs for awhile now. The hotter one wanted me much more when I would have been cheating. The uglier one is just thirsty for an alpha male, and I'm the closest available that she thinks will have her. Both date betas, the uglier one definitely getting the worst of the deal. The hotter one dates the 'local alpha', the most alpha guy in their group. Neither male understands the relationship dynamics exposed here, but the local alpha is so aloof it passes off as attractive to his LTR.

Anyway, lately the uggo has been into me at work, the hottie has too. Went out for drinks with both of them where they asked me to compare their asses, kino from both sides, etc. Ended the night with the hottie groping my cock. My work goals are priority over this slut, and I knew escalating further was a bad idea. I just groped her back and went home after some sort of neg.

Most recent encounter. House party before a local music event. I show up to a social group I generally don't party with - usually we see each other at community athletics events, etc. They know me as a fit guy, I know them as a bunch of music-loving stoners. So we're in their realm today, and I'm uncomfortable. Nonetheless, I'm getting kino from both of them, both in the presence of their LTRs and whenever they can get me alone.

I bring up something related to having a 'review wall' of best fucks, best reviews from people we'd fucked, etc. The hotter one says she doesn't have a bedroom big enough to house all of them. Uggo says it's shameful she even has a 20-count (40-60 count) to use for such a thing.

My hindbrain immediately went on alert, and I couldn't help but feel revulsion at what they'd just told me.

So this house party was to leave for the music venue and just re-congregate there. About an hour later, I took the opportunity to go home, try and analyze my social miscues (like I said, I was out of my element), and meet up with a more familiar social group later on. I don't go to the music event, and Uggo texts me a couple hours later asking what I'm up to.

I don't reply.

Lessons Learned

First - I need to practice being social with people whose company I don't enjoy. I have to do the same for work, so doing it socially will benefit me in multiple ways.

Second - I'm a fucking moron for considering fucking coworkers. I've known this the entire time, but I now have the final nail in that coffin. Next thing is to figure out how to fall off their radar safely.

Third - While I may have recently been increasing my HB# (both personally and with whom I'm fucking), I'm not there yet.

Fourth - Lowering my standards because of thirst is a mistake, be it with coworkers or not. There are reasons these sorts of women hang out with these sorts of men.

Fifth - AWALT. My vain expectation that these were 'good girls' in any degree is a holdover of my BP conditioning that I haven't yet taken out back and killed.

This is my biggest post thus far in the RP network, so I'll take this space to thank you all for everything you've done and continue to do for myself and all men everywhere.