(Excuse poor formatting. I'm using my cellphone.)

Last night I was planning on going out alone to test things out. But, a close friend wanted to go to a club. I dressed up and went out with him. Now I'd say I was pretty confidence because what I was wearing was simple but stylish. I stood tall and had great posture which only boosted my confidence.

Now I don't drink. I actually refuse to for a lot of reasons. Plus I'm very new to the bar/club scene. I'll admit i usually feel out of place tbh. But, I'm working constantly on overcoming that. Another fault I have is I'm not a big dancer. My friend is though. So he really expects and NEEDS me to dance. To give him confidence as well. This is hard for me because overall I just don't do it. Plus once I start to move he just looks and shakes his head. I don't stop but I'll admit it's annoying. I noticed tonight that bars and clubs seem like dancing with great body language is the best way.

Furthermore, my father always told me women judge if you'd be good at sex or not based on how out dance. So, I'm going to chill next time and vibe through it.

I will say I consider last night a failure on my part. I didn't get a number to the 3 women I found attractive there. Usually whenever I step outside I get at least one. I noticed REALLY wasn't feeling it tbh. But, I'd rather go out and work on improving than play my PS4 at home. So, I guess it's not too bad. It was interesting at least. The HB9 I approached at the end said how I came to her was so confident, genuine, and different that she'd leave with me if she wasn't with the owner. Although it doesn't mean much it was nice. I was expecting a hard rejection but got compliments on my looks and approach instead.

Overall I had fun. Did something fun with a good friend who appreciated me coming when no one else would. Since I consider it a failure though. I'm going out tonight with or without anyone, and dammit I'm doing better! Thanks for reading.