I just had a rough couple of months. For reference, I am in a LTR.

My young cousin died which was a huge blow to my family and caused me to lose frame. I did fine through everything until I was carrying him out of the church and I just lost it. Bawling my eyes out like a bitch in front of everyone.

The very next week, I was hospitalized with a bad infection. I had to undergo emergency surgery which killed my chances of reenlisting in the Army as I had planned.

I hadn't been to the gym in about six weeks and I started to get fat and lost a good portion of my strength gains.

I was depressed and had no confidence and slipped right back in to my beta ways.

As you might guess, my SO suddenly was never in the mood anymore. I moped, like a bitch. The only sex we had I begged for. I was all up in her shit and always worrying about how she was feeling. What was I doing wrong? It was like I had forgotten everything I had learned. I literally could not remember how to alpha.

Today, something clicked. I meditated this morning then hit the gym. I took the hit to my pride and dropped the weight of my lifts and finished my whole routine. Instant confidence. When I got home I just started making my breakfast and ate it in the same room as her completely ignoring her subtle attempts to get my attention. Then I got up to go make my protein shake and she starts rubbing up on me from behind. I led her to the living room and banged her right on the couch.

I still have a long way to go to get back to where I was, but today was a reminder that Red Pill works.