So I've finally swallowed this pill, and let me tell you, some of the deeper and darker concepts were TOUGH to get down. I'd like to simply spend this post explaining the situation in which led me here.

To begin with some background, I believe I've always practiced and understood the more basic concepts of redpill without even being aware of the sub. My n-count at this time was roughly 20. To me, many of these ideas are simply logical common sense which comes naturally to those that see the world for what it is. However, what did not dawn on me was some of the more dark and twisted facts of life that this sub deeply exploits. I'll go out on a limb and say that I simply chose to reject these ideas out of an unwillingness to cope.

Now to get to what actually forced the pill down my throat.

I met a girl through a mutual friend and there seemed to be obvious chemistry through social queues - great. We hung out soon after and had sex the first night. Now even before this I was well aware this girl was a slut, but it didn't bother me in terms of just having sex. The subject of body-count came up and she happily told me she was 30+. She told me stories of previous guys choking her during sex (we were exchanging stories) and other very kinky shit that I hadn't experienced before myself. It was apparent that this girl had a lot more sexual experience than I did and to be very honest - it was slightly intimidating. But she soon started dropping hints towards a relationship by saying things such as "Oh, but I wouldn't mind having sex with just the same person.", "I don't get why guys can do it but girls can't, it's a double standard" and so on. We hung out roughly two more times after this first night. I was doing excellent in holding frame. Every attempt she made to vet (crying, shit-testing, daddy issues, etc) I handled well using RedPill concepts I wasn't even aware of at the time!

Well, she gave me a common std (completely my fault, no condom), and this caused me to break frame and drunkenly call her the night I found out and led to me cursing her out big time. A week or two pass and I begin to fold - I find myself actually missing this girl big time. I really could not give a rhyme or reason why. The sex was amazing so maybe I'll just pin it to that (She was also arguably the hottest girl I have been with). I came back in contact with her and apologized for flipping out. It seemed she already moved onto a new guy. It starts spiraling down from here pretty quickly. I begin approaching her with logic saying things like "Well you were on board with a relationship before, I want to make it work" - real beta male shit. I fell into the Dr. SaveAHoe trap HARD. She was actually making ME feel vulnerable. "Ha! What a pussy!" you're probably thinking. But it happened and it led on for almost a month until it all finally dawned on me, and on the front steps of redpill I washed up.

I've since ghosted her. But I almost feel like thanking her, because the experience has been so eye-opening for me in terms of human nature. I felt like, in that moment, everything I was ever told or inherently understood about women was ACTUALIZED and it honestly excited me. I'd be a liar if I said I still don't think about her from time to time though - even when with other women. Guess I still need to work on it.

tldr- You can't save a hoe no matter how much you might want to.