I'm more emotionally frustrated more than I am sexually frustrated. I've been dating this girl for a couple of weeks. A few weeks into dating we both expressed that we where interested in a relationship together. On a recent date (this weekend) the chemistry seemed to be lacking. We were going to go to London for the day but the train was cancelled so maybe that might if had something to do with it. Towards the end of the date she said she's not sure how she feels and wants me " as a friend", I don't see " just friends" working out for me After talking to her about my feelings towards her she said that she regretted saying that and she dose want to try.

I just am feeling gutted to be honest, I'm not sure where I stand with her. I'm afraid of going back to being alone. I'm very picky when it comes to women so I'm not sure how long it will be until I find someone else. I really find this girl really attractive witch is a rare thing for me I think the lack in chemistry was in my part as I am not very good at expressing myself. I'm very controlling of my emotions as I do very emotionally demanding work (I work in end of life care and also volunteer for a charity that supports people who are suicidal).

We have plans to meet again soon. I fear this could be the last Time I see her

Tldr. I want a meaningful relationship and but I'm struggle to express myself. Now I fear being alone

I'm not sure what I'm asking for here I just needed to get it of my chest. Any response would be appreciated. Any advice on How should I handle the next date?

Thank you for reading