I discovered the manosphere a few weeks ago and was on the fence about swallowing the red pill. Yesterday I read the entire MMSL Primer by Athol Kay and the red pill metaphor now makes perfect sense - I have swallowed it whole.

While most of the reading was uncomfortable as I realised what a pussy whipped beta I had become, ultimately yesterday was one of the best days of my life. I think the MMSL primer should be compulsory reading for all 18 year old males.

I am 40, have been living with the same woman for 22 years, married for 12 of those and have a three year old. It's been sexless for about 5 years and I've been doing everything a beta does to turn it around, obviously to no avail.

After reading the MMSL I realised I was already pretty far through the MAP anyway. I have been lifting weights and working out for the past two years, lost 25kgs and built a lean and ripped physique. Quit drinking about four years ago. I've been on TRT for the past two years as well and have been increasingly alpha in my behaviours and steadily increasing my sex rank. I hold a job and own a house, am a good dad and generally have my shit together.

Despite all of this my wife, as Athol warned might happen, has been completely unresponsive to any of this and still keeps it locked up like the fucking crown jewels.

Immediately after finishing the MMSL I rang a lawyer and have an appointment on Wednesday to initiate the divorce proceedings. I'm feeling euphoric at the moment. My whole outlook has been completely changed and I can't unlearn what I have just absorbed.

TL;DR Read MMSL Primer, getting a divorce on Wednesday.

edit: sperring.