So I've been single most of my life never been a ladies man. I've had sex and girlfriends in the past but for whatever reasons I've been on a massive dry spell,try 7 years. So I finally start working out ,eating right trying to get my shit together. So I meet this girl who I have known off and on for a while, she's a tilted kilt bartender ,cool chick going to nursing school. So any time we would hang out we would dance ,snuggle smoking and drinking usually involved. We've taken trips out of town and went to shows together. While never really getting too physical other than a short kiss or grinding. So a few weeks ago she texts me to come over to her place to watch a movie at her friends place. So were chillen with her and her friends watchin movies drinking pretty heavily her and her girlfriend decide they want to take a xanax and they want me to take a piece ,so I do, not wanting to miss out never having done it before(but I have done most drugs so I'm not a noob). At the time I didn't know that xanax was a boner killer. So we get done with the movie and we move to her friends extra room to sleep. We immediately Start going at it,first time we've made out for more than few seconds, more we've ever touched(mind you I haven't been intimate in years so I have some butterflies) but were making out,taking clothes off ,sucking Tits,eating her out,things are awesome,except Mr yogurt slinger is not at attention at all, mind you I've never ever had a problem getting up. So we lose the heat and she blames herself ,I blame myself, I roll over to sleep. Next morning is a lil awkward but I hug her bye and tell her not to count me out and to give me a shot ,next time without xanax and drinking. She agrees. Here's where I feel like I've become a beta plate, it's been a month or so since that night and it's been a complete 180 on our relationship if you can call it that. No texts or calls nada, hung out once or twice but I felt like she felt obligated to chill with me. Sorry for ranting just been thinking about it a lot. I like the girl as she super sexy and super fucking cool plus we have a lot in common and would hate to flush it all. Am I being a beta bitch,what do I do?