Friendzone

Ps. I have never been in a relationship

So I met this girl, J, on the last day of the college school year coming back from a party at 2am. I never really approach girls unless I’m at a party but she was too beautiful relative to the girls at my college not to say anything. Turns out she was a transfer student from a big university, which made sense why she was so hot. We hit it off and I was drunkish she was completely sober and ended up talking all morning outside on a bench till 4am.

I gave her my number and I woke up with text saying we should grab coffee. I couldn’t because I was leaving campus to go home for the summer and she lives in the city where I go to school. However we texted and snapped back in forth. I tried the red pill abundance/ freeze contact method and it worked.

Fast forward to about a month since we first met, I moved to nyc to work for the summer and the week after I told her she went to a conference at NYU, we she told me she heard about and decided to do just 2 DAYS before the conference began.

I was so excited to see her and so was she. I was new to the city and didn’t know where to take her as we were both under 21 and prior to meeting her I was with my friend and took a shot before meeting her.

We ended up meeting in time square, when we met she immediately gripped my hand as we wondered around time square aimlessly. I made so many mistakes, I kissed her aggressively in the middle of the street over and over, I was so fucking excited thanks to no fap. She could definitely tell and later after things started getting stale she asked me what I wanted and said she’s not looking for a relationship because she got out of something recently but would go on a second date. She then called an Uber and went back because of her conference the next morning. I don’t know why but I smacked her ass when she got in the Uber, she made an awkward face but then smiled and waved back at me. I know I fucked up on this date, definitely my worst date ever.

I told her how that night that I had a great time and she said same here☺️

I listened to my dumbass friend instead of my own intuition and texted her the next day to come over. She said she couldn’t . Then texted her the day after that to walk in the park with me but she was going out with her cousin. Then the day after that I texted her miss me yet... Got nothing

Then I got this text u see in imgur...

She deleted me from Snapchat but I accidentally tried to delete her from snap as well and ended up adding her back by accident. I post on my snap story every time I’m doing something social, just for social proof. She is always the first three people to open it. Especially last weekend when I went to a club and this superficial but extremely hot girl, hotter than J, who took a picture with me on my snap story because she liked me but her friends didn’t approve of my friends. J, doesn’t/ didn’t post on her stories often but all of a sudden she taking random boring pics and posting it on her story. I’ve stopped opening them. But I still see the preview and I think she is testing me to see if I still have interest in her but I want her to contact me before I do anything. But I don’t care if I contact her if it means we could start talking again, I also don’t want to get to school and she ends up talking to another guy since she is new to my school and she is definitely one of the hottest girls on my campus.

I’m in a frat and I know how to attract girls but I have trouble creating intimate relationships because I struggle to stay on my purpose and I get wrapped up in my own head about girls.

I know I sound pathetic but we really connected, that’s why she wants to be friends, I made the mistake of pushing too hard too fast. It’s been exactly a month and I still like her. I am just wondering if it’s possible that she could want me back and do I text her or do I wait for school in August or her to text me back thanks?