Been lurkin for a while on and off but recently I've been through some through some shit so I figured I would share so that some of the newer guys can learn from my mistakes. This is going to be a long post due to the fact that I'm going to start from the beginning of my situation. TLDR is at the bottom.

Enjoy

I lost my dad at 13 and I didn't really have any Alpha role models in my life as I was growing up. I was raised around two women and my sister is so much of an SJW that almost every word that comes out of her mouth now makes me want to vomit. I was BETA AS FUUUUUUUCK.

Coming into college I was a fat virgin loser. No ambitions, no hobbies (this one is still kind of true... I lift?), and absolutely no idea how to talk to women. A buddy of mine introduced me to Redpill and I immediately began reading.

Started lifting, cleaned up my diet, currently working on clearing up my acne. Through my reading I felt as though I had learned enough to go out and start experimenting on my own.

For a brief period of time I was the best version of myself ever. Lost weight, confidence through the roof; Shit didn't phase me.

Begin sophomore year Spring semester (spring 2017). I had my eye on an HB8/9 for a while and we eventually dated for a couple months. This girl, we'll call her A, was running for the position of my fraternity's sweetheart. I figured this would get in my way, or at least make it more difficult for me to game her, so I waited till the race ended and pursued.

Throughout the semester she was giving me IOIs, but I never really payed attention to her. Instead I would just game/hookup with other chicks in front of her (preselection/ passive game is key). This went on for pretty much most of the semester.

~side note/funny story that A told me while we were dating

One night at a party (I was black out drunk) I was talking to A. I eventually went in for a kiss and she stopped me; said something along the lines of "we shouldn't... blah blah blah sweetheart competition." Not even 15 seconds later she saw me down the hall making out with some other chick. I digress

It's almost the end of the semester and the competition is over. Perfect time for me to make my move.

Something to note here that is VERY IMPORTANT. I WAS STILL A VIRGIN. I had the right moves to open up a chick and get her to start hooking up with me, but could never get past the LMR. I can't tell you guys how many times I heard "I don't want this to just be a one night stand...", or "I'm on my period." or whatever the chick could think to say just to not let me fuck her.

I start talking to A things are going pretty well. We talk for a week or two and we eventually fuck (to my surprise I lasted quite a while). We started dating a couple days after I fucked her (my idea, bad idea). For the first month or two things went pretty well. Pussy on demand, she would bring me food, and pretty much do whatever else I told her.

After the first time we fucked she told my I was the best she ever had ( I didn't tell her that she was my first until 2 months after we started dating) so that boosted my ego through the roof. After just a week or two of dating A, I became complacent. "What more could I want. I have hot girlfriend, my dick game is on point, I look better than I've ever looked. I'm fucking set." I wish I could go back and kick myself in the balls and set myself straight. I stopped lifting and started slipping back into my beta tendencies. My frame was all but nonexistent, shit test after shit test just flew right over my head. I became angry with A and myself. Not to mention I was too selfish to give her any of my time, I would rather smoke pot and play video games, or go chill with my friends.

The relationship carried on for almost four months. Here's the thing. I could see myself staying complacent and continuing to waste my time. A is very dumb, and she had many other red flags that I didn't notice at the time. I could easily see myself in the same place with A in a year and a half or however much longer that shit storm of a relationship would last. I didn't want my time to be wasted. After about 2.5 months of dating A I was heavily contemplating dumping her. I eventually dumped and thought I was ready to move on. But without my realizing it, she became (still is) my oneitis.

I tried talking to other girls at parties after I dumped her but I could feel my game was off. I didn't have that same confidence I did with women before. On top of all this, the thought of A was in the back of my head the entire time.

Fast forward to today. It's 2:50 AM and I'm still stuck on this bitch. That being said I've started going to the gym again and have started to clean up my diet.

Things to learn: - Passive game - Preselection is everything ( Best advice I got from the friend who introduced me to TRP: "If you wanna get in a girls pants, fuck her friends.") - ABUNDANCE: Please dear god don't be like me. Master abundance before you enter a relationship or you will find yourself in the oneitis boat. - DO NOT GET COMPLACENT: "Proud, but never satisfied"

TLDR: Was a virgin. Started dating LTR. Dumped LTR. Now have oneitis because I had not mastered abundance.

Happy Hunting boys.

Edit: Minor Grammatical errors, added one more closing point (Things to learn)