Tl:Dr I handle women well up to a certain point of investment.

Body While I'm traveling around the country there's this special little girl I've grown attached to back home. She insisted I live with her while I was back for a few months late last year, I even prolonged my journey by a few weeks because I was enjoying whatever it is we had. I refuse to define it. She was actually suppose to come out with me on this last round but due to the instability my lifestyle brings we decided to wait on that journey together.

We've been together four months living together then another four months of communication on my travel. She's intelligent, grounded way beyond her age. I appreciate her as an individual and would stay in contact regardless if I ever got to fuck her brains out again.

Recently there's been a lull in our conversation. I removed myself from a certain social media we use mainly to communicate but before I did so, I made sure we had each other's phone numbers. Even called a few times because her generation grew up with Social Media where as I'm old enough to remember biking to each other's house to see if a friend was home. At the very least calling a home phone and having to ask a daughters father if she's available. She got down on herself, taking it personal believing I blocked her. That she some how possed the ability to upset me.

I put myself in a stupid situation today right before I shoot off to another state. Shot her a message on the reactivated social media account. She scolded me, I laughed told her I'm probably going to do it again. She then proceeds to tell me her days been rough. I offer a phone call because I have a few hours to kill in transit. This is where things get shifty.

One of the things I've always enjoyed is our ability to communicate which she seems to be shutting down. Everything could be told to me, I was her keeper of secrets. Ever since she blamed herself for the disappearance of my social medial presence, this ability has seemed to vanish.

She tries to justify it via the route she doesn't want to bother me. She feels she's nuisance. I enjoy our conversations because she has a deep understanding of psychology. Discussing her problem, my problems, individual behaviors or just talking about the world I typically walk a way feeling as I've learned something new.

This has been going on for about two weeks, the lack in her side of the conversation. I've hung up on her with a polite good night when she sits there in silence to long. I've dropped out of conversation when she quits putting in. She's intelligent enough to get the hint but tonight she pulled it again.

Started to open up vent. Then shut down, tried shifting the blame to my choice in world's. Now I could justify it to you fellows it's been a rough day. She caught me off guard but the truth is, she's got me hooked a little. I found myself trying to pull her into conversation. Even using her own words from this morning against her, you know you wouldn't have brought it up if it wasn't bothering you.

I swung once, twice and I felt myself getting a little upset. This in the past with LTRs is where I've let it get the better of me. At some point I quit treating them like a little girl and give them the respect they deserve. I try to hold them accountable for their intelligence. Instead of pulling conversation out of her, I hit her with, hope your night gets better, than left her on read.

The Point of the Story

  • All women are self centered, instead of calling me to see what's up. She automatically assumes I blocked her. That she must have done something special to warrant such a dramatic response.

  • Identifying your poor behaviors is step one. Catching them while you're in the act is step two. Ideally they'll be eliminated. I stopped myself from over reacting. Yes I wanted to comfort her, she started it and didn't want to finish. Three years ago I'd have called her forcing her into some sort of conversation, attempting to finish what she started because I care. Now I just let it be. Either she'll come around or she won't. There's no point in waisting my energy trying to force something that holds no grounds on my life. If she can't correct her behaviors, I'll slowly drift away.

  • At a certain point of investment, after a certain point in time (after the honey moon faze I presume) I can't help but try and hold them accountable like I would a man versus treating them life a child. Everything always runs smoothly up until this point.