Well. I took the pill a few months ago. Many MANY things have changed.

I am Australian, so some of the rules may be varied, due to most Aussies (girls and guys) not liking tall poppy or insanely confident guys. That, and I am somewhat attractive, what most would call built chubby. And I am missing a tooth, and my finances aren't really up to scratch to enable a change to that. BUT, for the most part, I am considered attractive. Got a V happening, full head of hair, strong arms and shoulders, good goatee happening. I am attracted to chubbier women naturally also, so there is somewhat of a balance there. But I digress..

To start with, I am still struggling with being an alpha, but it hasn't failed me to a large degree.

I have had quite a few rejections, but as soon as I let the fear of rejection go, my self respect has soared.

My first attempt didn't go quite as a expected. I met her after work, and we chatted. Still being quite the beta, I did feel a spark, and so did she. Particularly when we walked by the river and I stood in front of her, physically dominating her, and she smiled and moved in closer expecting kissing. I, sadly, was still in beta mode, and failed. Not all loss, we agreed on a second date, and much making out in the car was had. The second meet up was random, as I picked her up from the pub, and we went to my place to watch movies. All was going well, she was getting into it, but constant interruptions ensued. Third date was a shamoozle, movies and my being too nervous. Not to worry, as she wasn't really what I was after.

The second one was on the go while I was still 'dating' the first. I went pretty much pure alpha on her. Cutish little goth girl, aged 30. Hit/hitting the wall, maybe. Difference of rules in Australia. After the usual game of cat and mouse, we agreed to meet at Mana Bar. (Geek/gamer bar in the city). This was looking a little worrisome, since the weather was poor that night, and I had trouble finding the place. (This also occurred the night immediately after girl one, haha). We went in, she knows everybody, and I'm in my element. Geeks and metalheads galore, my kind of crowd. We start playing games, a couple of her mates rock up. They are NO contest. Pure nerds, no concept, many years younger, not goth/metal at all. Aaaanyway, after nearly getting threatened by a viking looking dude, we get a couple of drinks and chat away about life, work, family etc. She's obviously a bit of a headcase, but definitely could see myself in her pants. Also, had a cute punk girl chatting to me too, threatening her.

So we get outside, I want to see her scooter. It started to rain, and I eyed her to see if rain was a thing for her. It was, obviously. A make out session ensued next to her scooter, grabbing her tits, pulling her crotch to mine. She's backing off a bit, but smiling. I bite her neck and scratch her back. She's already twitching and moaning, so I know I hit her buttons easily. I asked if it was late for her, she said no, but maybe it was for me. I told her sleep is not required, and I would love to see her comics and watch some movies. But rain! Surely, she shouldn't ride home in this! Try to get her scooter into the back of my car, fail obviously, but definitely funny on both parts. We go back to her place, her saying 'I don't want to fuck on first dates, just so you know.' I nod, and agree. So she shows me her room, cool, go out have a smoke and her housemates go to bed, and we put on some movies. Anyway, we chill on her bed, I make out with her some more, and bite and scratch. This drives her nuts, and I just start going to town. She's forgotten all about her no fucking on first date thing, of course. Anyway, I take her panties off, and she's DRIPPING guys. I barely started eating her pussy (something I have always been skilled in, I might add) and fingering, and her pussy already starts convulsing in orgasm mode. She's moaning saying she's about to cum two minutes in, so I slam my cock inside her. I just absolutely own that pussy of her, to three/four orgasms, and biting and scratching her all the way. She's tired, and her words 'I'm about to pass out, jesus christ', her legs shaking, she and I go for a glass of water and smoke. She's positively bathing in the afterglow, so we put on another movie back in her room. Fight Club, as it were. Anyway, I'm not done yet, so I wind her up AGAIN, and we fuck like rabbits AGAIN. 3 orgasms for her, the final one is her on top, feeling her pussy grab my cock in a HUGE cum, her head thrown back, in absolute sexual bliss. She comes back to earth just as Brad Pitt's line is said 'I haven't been fucked like that since grade school' Much laughing ensues, and we chill. She's snuggling, on her defiled sheets with a mixture of her and my cum all over them. Kinda hot, but she's wanting me to stay. I stay, but play up a sort of odd guy thing, so she's not wanting more. And I pretend to have work the next day, enabling a quick escape. So I dodged her bullet, but got my end in, and gave her the fucking of a lifetime.

On a huuuuge high, I'm feeling awesome. I'm back in the game, my mates notice the difference, I get noticed a LOT. I've got a hair cut, and beginning a huge TRP transformation. Even after losing with girl one after the slut, nothing can stop me now.

I have since got myself a fuckbuddy, who hasn't been fucked by a man in so long, and literally wants my dick every night, driving from one end of town to me to get it, and I made her orgasm multiple times. I had another failed Tinder meet up, she thought of me as relationship, we didn't click, she messaged horny asking for sex. I sent her away, and she's come back for my bone. I've got a girl about 60km literally gasping for my cock and every pic I send makes her wet. Upon meeting her, she's entirely different with me than other dates, because I make her wet. This girl is used to being able to force guys into being her beta, and I don't allow that. It drives her NUTS.

Another date occurred, she had stated on her profile on wanting a relationship, so I attacked it as so. Nice enough guy, with just enough sleaze to keep her on. She ended up rejecting me for relationship, but I talked her into another date. She still thought I was after a relationship, but we did fuck like crazy.

I also got a 22 year old girl to come round and be my slave for a weekend. Never really liked older guys etc, was blown away that I was a man, rather than a boy. Which is what she wanted. She had never had that, and will never poop/piss the same ;-)

Thank you, TRP. I have gained so much confidence, simply by realising that giving women the power to control interactions and relationships is bad form. Now that I can control it, I can see it succeed. Even after some rejections, I have been able to fuck.

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