TL;DR, My ex broke up with me, I realized she wasn’t the only one for me, started to get myself back out there and here I am now, looking for some help and guidance.

my ex broke up with me about month ago, which now I realise was the best thing that could have happened to me. I was in a relationship where she was controlling everything all because of my past, because we had some history 5 years ago and I spoke to another girl while with her. I let her control me completely, shed make me come home to her house every afternoon after work, if I didn't want to stay at hers that night shed make me feel guilty by saying that I’m out with another girl or doing something bad, she would wake up in the middle of the night and go off at me because she had a dream that I was with another girl, even though I am right next to her. It was just not the best situation and I now realise that, I realise that she was taking away my masculinity and making me her little fucking pet that would do anything to keep her.

So, I thought to myself the other day, fuck it, I’m going to be getting back out there eventually, why not just do it now, try and have a little fun.

A little bit about me before I go into it any further, I am a 22-year-old male who over my 22 years have had multiple girlfriends (most short periods of time) and multiple sex partners. I have never ever been one of those guys to just go up to a girl and give a silly pickup line or really even just to have a conversation, I would be at the back of the crowd watching all the other guys have fun. I was that guy on the internet writing to girls because I thought I was too scared to ugly too stupid to have a beautiful girl speak to me or take time for me or anything.

so, I started small by speaking to a girl I knew a while ago over the internet, turns out she had a thing for me for a while so we decided to catch up. I specified clearly that I have just come out of a relationship and I do not want another one for a long period of time and she was fine with that.

I went and picked her up, (went to the wrong house first >.<) we had nothing planned so I just said how about we go for a drive and find somewhere nice to chill. We were there for a few hours just catching up, talking and being silly. I actually felt comfortable around this girl, not like comfortable like I wanted to be with her but comfortable that I wasn't feeling my normal nervousness or awkwardness or any of the things I used to feel. I noticed myself speaking in a bit of a deeper voice, giving a little bit shorter answers and keeping strong eye contact, I could see her falling for me there and then. We ended up going back to my house and getting it on, we both just went straight to sleep after it, woke up in the morning and everything was still the same, she had a good night I had a god night, no stings attached and she will come round whenever i ask. We got some food the next morning and i dropped her home, she said she had the best time and wanted to do it again real soon.

This is my first post guys, I guess I started looking into the red pill when my ex broke up with me so about a month ago. I have such a long journey a head of me, I know that. But I hope with this awesome community I may be able to get a little help and guidance along the way. Thanks guys.