In this post I will write a rather quick insight into my last roughly 2 years of living.

Background:

I'm 20 years old, from Germany and recently moved to Spain for work, saving up some money to spend on my pilots license.

As most guys here I've learned AWALT the hard way, with an unsuccessful LTR, but luckily it came to me quite early in my life and I still have a while youth ahead of me.

In short my ex girlfriend who I was with from August 2016 till December 2017 was a liar with a lot of big red flags, and me a naive beta provider of some sort.

  1. Red flag: She would party 2 times a week (clubbing) the first 4 months of our relationship, cheating once (at least). She was 23 at the time, I was only 18 so wasn't expecting that.

  2. Schizophrenic, yes she was and had been institutionalised for it a time.

Very dishonest and manipulative person, would always lie her way out of being "judged", also had the basic social anxiety like most girls these days.

  1. Wanting a "break"

Reaching this part of the relationship the summer of 2017, I knew things were going bad. I said fine but that we remained together, she cheated there again, which I discovered being clever enough to remember her password for iCloud and use the find my friends function, lucky for me so she couldn't lie without being caught. I had this info since the first time she cheated so had been monitoring everything, with no apparent bad things happening before the break.

Her cheating then gave me the drive to fuck one of her friends as well, and her begging to get back together afterwards. Which I sadly agreed on.

4.- December 2017, she broke up with me after a huge fight, where I got quite heated, she hit me because I confronted her about that she had been out until 10 in the morning and that her friend said she had seen her going home with some guys.

I spat her in the face and told her to go home to her parents and think things out.

Next day, her mother and her came at got her stuff, and her mother complained that I had "been too aggressive that day and oppressive in the relationship, and that I never gave her space to go party"

All of this considered I obviously fell into the standard depression following a breakup like this.

Though quickly I overcame this, in late January I was already better.

But before that, I had a hard time relating to other girls and had all the standard trust issues and whatnot a beta has, to this day this isn't completely out of me yet but the progress is evident.

Between December and February I was with 4 girls, I've always had a very decent physical look but tend to be more reserved as a person, until I know people. Often seen as arrogant. I found this could help me a bit.

I moved to Spain in February with a friend who sadly went home quite early, leaving me a little behind which was actually great.

I grew to become more independent and so on, had sex with a co-worker after my first night out with them.

But 2 stories come to mind mind, with 2 Spanish girls.

One of them I had been out drinking like usual with my friends and we sit outside the club smoking, some Spanish girls asks "do you have a lighter" to which I reply by a simple "No", but with a smirk on my face, followed by giving her the lighter and a laugh.

Instantly they were interested, both pretty girls, about a solid 8 on the scale.

They kept asking questions and I kept my cool, initially not interested in them but also asked them a few to keep the convo going.

We go dance like usual, she asks if I wanted to go to the bar and get something to drink. And she actually even pays the rest of the night as well.

We go home obviously.

The other one is more recent,

Only last weekend, I came across some girls talking to some co-workers, initially interested in target A, though for some reason the night progress to me being more into B, B is a 8, A would be considered a 9.

Well most of the group go out to smoke, I stay with B for once because she doesn't smoke and we fall in talk about some things and out of nowhere she starts complimenting me like quite a lot with her totally broken English, adding most in Spanish of which I only know a very limited number of words myself, just answering right and "vale" which means okay in Spanish. Never saying anything back.

Anyways we end up going to my place later and even go to the beach next day with my roommate, my roommate is a really hard core BP guy, he went home with A but got told to sleep on the couch sooo yeah haha.

Anyways guys! This quickly sums up who I am and how my progression is in the whole dating part of being RP. Though the mental changes first comes later.

Any suggestions to what I can improve?