I worked out every day, played 3 sports, am fairly attractive, and have been told I'm funny. Why is it then, that the only contact I've made with other women is one kiss with my gf of one month in sophomore year of high school? Didn't know it at the time, but my mindset was as blue pill as it gets. Never talked to or approached girls at my school because the media I consumed taught me that girls didn't want to be approached, that it was all up to women to make the decisions. That girls are to be put on a pedestal and men are to submit to their every whim. I believed I was being courteous or a "gentleman" by having girls make all the decisions, all the moves, and rendering myself complacent. In my feminist indoctrinated mind, everything I was doing was right and so the only remaining explanation as to why I was in a lifelong dry spell was because I was a "late bloomer" or just "special" and the right girl would happen along some day. Bull. Two years later I come across the red pill, and it was all clear to me. All I had ever been taught was a lie fed to me by school, the media, my parents, my friends...etc. I was putting that girl on a divine pedestal when all she wanted to do was fuck. Not that I would've minded that, that's all I really wanted too. But the lie I was conditioned to believe told me "You're just a horny pig, girls aren't like that. You have to let them make the moves and make things special...blah blah blah." I don't stress over it though. What's done is done. At least I can learn from my past, and swallow the red pill just in time for college next year.