EDIT ~~ Ok, I'm an INCEL, according to the sidebar. Holy shit!!! Just now read the confessions of an Incel. That guy was involuntarily celibate for 12 years. I'm shy of just 6 years. So GLAD I found and am addicted to this subreddit. So let me wipe the first few sentences off of the intro and start again. ~~

I'm about 40 years old. I can meet women ok, but I have had terrible, terrible trouble closing any deal with a woman because I go all "beta" after my initial "alpha" blast that got me talking to her. And as a result, I think my habits may have trained myself to be somewhat afraid of sex. I may be. And of course, I need to get the hell over it. Plus I'm not well endowed or anything - just an average grower not a show-er. Not that I should worry about that, but it may have been a factor in being a little afraid.

I have options to get into the swing of things before I ramp up to 8's, 9's, and 10's.

  1. A call girl. Kind of a shot in the dark. I guess I'd hit the google.

  2. A fat girl down the street who is waaaaaay into me. But she's kinda annoying, hippy dippy, and farts. So lame. I only met her because she's my friend's sister. She's maybe 32 y/o. She has cooked me a meal before though. So if I can get a boner, I could get some free meals.

  3. A 43 y/o woman I went out on one date with who also seemed waaaaaaaay enthusiastic about me. Yeah, she's a cougar type of woman, but she isn't bad looking and getting a boner should be pretty easy.

  4. A 25 y/o woman who is married to a guy currently deployed in Afghanistan. She is a smokin' bunny rabbit and carousel rider. (That poor army dude is trying to clean her up, I guess?) My main issue is I think this is what they mean by "support the troops" is don't fuck a dude's wife while he's overseas fighting a war. I'm anti-war, but still - isn't that bad karma?

  5. That goth chick I could've stolen last weekend. But, I REALLY think I should have sex with somebody else before I have sex with her. I'd like some experience under my belt before I try sealing the deal with her.

I'm erring towards #3. Your thoughts?

Thanks for reading!