Just a warning, I'm not the best writer, so some things may not be too coherent, but bare with me. This post is a going to a mess of my observations, experiences, and shit.

Just a bit about me. Right now im a senior in high school, turning 18 this Saturday.Found trp about halfway through last summer after 17 years of being a beta bitch. I always knew in the back of my mind how things really worked, but could never find out why or what to do. I've been relatively attractive, skinny but with shoulder muscles from playing the tuba and sousa phone. Haven't been really working out, but building muscle thanks to being in NJROTC.

One thing I've noticed on this sub is a lot of the advice is directed to college years or later. Now I can figure how to apply it to my own life and situations, but I'm fairly smart/intuitive. now the majority of the people here probably are in the group, and I'm not bitching.

A month or two ago, I thought that the only way to get anywhere sexually with a girl was to be in a relationship with them. So I tried one girl, and obviously AWALT, so i never even got a kiss. Dated another one and she was great. Honestly would be a great gal to settle down with and have a nice ltr. Only issue is that I'm a teenage boy who wants sex and such. So three weeks into our relationship and only making out once , I cheated on her with a hotter, more sexually willing girl. (I've wanted this gal for a year but didn't make a move because I was a bp bitch).

Here is one decision I made that could have been handled better. I broke up with my gf for the girl I cheated with, let's call her M. I then asked out M, to be my girlfriend. Of course, she rejected me. But, I maintained frame and since then we've left our fair chare of bites and scratches on each other. Side note on M. She has two other guys going after her. One in her grade (she's a sophomore) who is physically attractive, but is 110%bp, so he'd never make a move. The other graduated last year, is also physically attractive, but is bp like the other to a degree. He's done shit with her, but not recent since they don't see each other much. Those two are trying pretty freaking hard to make her commit to only them when she has no intention to. Obviously she is not overt with that; her words say that she "has issues she needs to work through" or some shit. They're obviously not seeing any girls in hopes of M choosing them.

While I am currently spinning two plates (well, I think that's what I'm doing. I dunno) imcluding M. Now the other plate, C, I've recently started spinning. She actually came onto me, giving me her number and telling me she wants to go on a date. We go out for icecream, then to a movie, Ouji. (okay movie. Just don't have high expectations). we hit second base by the time It's over, and get interupted by the clean up guy. So, we drive to a nearby park. On the way, I make a mistake.

The mistake I made was not lying about my partner count, which is zero. We still got half naked and fogged my cars windows to hell (with her questioning my vrginity multiple times), but she refused to go any further. Afterwards, she told me that she, "never let's a guy even kiss her on the first date."

If anyone has some advice on how I can, I dunno, make C forget/ignore/whatever the fuck you wana say the fact that I still have my V-card, I'd love it.

And that concludes whatever the fuck you'd wanna call this. I'd say go gentle being that I don't post this much about myself often, but I like it rough, so have at me.